吃得很杂,然而对CP洁癖。勿转载二传。

everyone can start again, not through love but through revenge

AO3,BBKaz新文,作者Cephied_Variable,字数16k

用几个时间点串联起TPP到MGS1之前空白的20年,期间又穿插了许多PW时期的回忆。我第二次从头到尾仔仔细细读完之后整个人都是蒙圈的,胸口空空在床上躺平等死的状态。

就像评论里都在说的,如果说TPP正如其名带来的都是幻痛,这篇文就好像在痛处上实实在在地按了下去,让我一次痛过瘾。如果之前是憋屈得哭都不知道从哪儿哭起,看完这篇文之后终于能够把眼泪一次都流干净。

我需要这样一个补完的过程,以后能了无牵挂地放下这个CP。


整篇文都在往我心肝脾脏腑里插刀子的同时,有这么一刀当胸插得尤其狠:

BB告诉Kaz被固蛇杀死的只是VS,问他既然辅佐过VS,是不是也在乎他。Kaz想:

The question hits Kaz like a physical blow. He- (steady voice in his ear, in the crook of his neck. Their fingers entwine around the hilt of the gun. Side by side watching the coffins burn. There are still ashes on their faces when they make love. Snake's mouth tastes like brimstone. 'I'm already a demon, Kaz'. I am too, Boss, we'll walk the path to damnation side by side, like we were always meant to. Ten days in a hole and Snake comes to him... the way Snake says his name is like a benediction. When Snake lays him down back at Mother Base, Kaz feels like he's the one who's been in a coma for nine years, like he's sleeping beauty waiting for someone to break the curse, to bring him back to himself. Snake kisses him with heart-breaking tenderness. We're not joking around anymore. This is real. This is everything. Kaz remembers hooking his arm around Snake's neck and dragging him down. Come down into the hole with me, he thought, into the darkness. It's unbearable to be here alone, but if we're down here together I can do anything.)

……

"No. I don't care at all." If I did, I'd be crazy by now.


我看这篇文的时候还配了个明年今日当bgm,这酸爽难以言喻。

说起来这篇文和truth from a lie的作者,在TPP这道雷劈下来之前,其实都是忠实的bosselot党……结果写起bbkaz虐点一个比一个戳的稳准狠(。


 
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